When I shared the message I gave at Ben’s funeral in Oklahoma I mentioned his patriarchal blessing. I have one for myself as well. I was reading mine again a few days ago, I got mine when I was 17. I am learning and realizing that the parts that speak about dating and marriage for myself don’t just apply to one person. Never in my wildest dreams would I have thought that at 17! But here I am again at 42 realizing these counsels, guidance and promises apply to me today all over again!
I’ve been thinking a lot about how much of the things Ben and I went through prepared me for the spot I am in now. Because he had been sick for so long and had some “close calls” we’ve had many conversations about what if this became our reality. I know what Ben would like for me, I know the type of person Ben would want for me to end up with and I know he doesn’t want me to be alone.
I don’t know how or when it all works out, but I know it will. That has become very clear to me over the past few weeks. Hoping there’s a plan that doesn’t involve the internet dating cesspool. Been there done that, when it wasn’t socially acceptable!
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